Monday, February 8, 2016

Sometimes you just need a reset button......

I have not felt like blogging for months now.  I just didn't feel like it and I couldn't figure out why.  It isn't like I was not running races.  I have done quite a few since my last post.

How 2015 ended:

Rock n Roll Philly.  3rd year running and it got moved to Halloween!!  Course was long but if I stopped my watch at 13.1 I would have had a PR :)





Trenton Half with BGR! With a race full of BGR and BMR you will never get more support on a course!!



Rock n Roll Vegas #CGP2015!!  Crazy wind storm 50mpr head winds for the second half of the race kicked my ass but I was on pace for a huge PR up to mile 9!!




The (not so frozen) Frozen Bonsai half.  63 degrees in December!!  This is when I realized it was all starting to fall apart with the longer races.  Thank goodness I had a friend to get me to that finish line!!






A bunch of local races with my Team Chris teammates and local BGRLI ladies!  When I am with these people I am happy but my heart was not in the running part that is for sure.  December had amazing weather for running which was nice.




Heck, I even won an award.....



So then 2016 started....this is a running blog so we won't talk about the devastation of losing David Bowie and Alan Rickman.



First big race was the Brewery 10 Mile Run.  I hated it the last time I did it but I thought being with my teammates I would have a better time.....well the before and after were better but the running was miserable from the 1st step I took.  Worst 10 mile time ever.



Winter Run Series....no pics?  Oh yeah I bailed on all 4 races!

Went to Fla to visit my in-laws and found a race there.  Suncoast Half.  Weather was perfection but again I was miserable the whole time.



I have been doing short runs and walks on the treadmill to make sure I get at least 1 mile a day and even went out to run in the snow.  Since it was a short distance I was able to enjoy it and smile. (except when I saw a fallen tree)



So I guess that brings me to this weekend and the big realization.  I went into Prospect Park with Danielle and Denise for the Go Hard or Go Home Half Marathon.  I had a bunch of friends going and my one friend Jen was going to be running her ONE HUNDREDTH half marathon all while she also runs ultra marathons!!  You can check out her blog here.

Anyway.....again from the first step I took I was miserable.  The course didn't help.  It was hilly, and FOUR loops so we passed the finish line THREE TIMES and did all the hills four times.  At one point I stopped and sat in a port o potty for like 5 minutes.  It wasn't even a race one...it was a RANDO park one with no door latch....GROSS but I just didn't want to be there anymore.



It was after that situation I realized I had to admit something to myself that I had been thinking for a while.  I am burnt out.  I used to race a lot because it was fun.  I am not fast and I am not winning things but I was having fun.  I am no longer having fun.  I need to cut out the races that are over 10k for a while.  I have already contacted a few races that I know will let me defer and/or transfer and am working on finding people to take my bibs.  I will still do a couple of long races I am registered for, the Hot Chocolate 15k, RnR Raleigh and the Newport 10 miler but I am not putting any pressure on myself for any of them.  Other than that I will go back to how I started and just stick to local 5ks, 4 milers and 10ks.

My biggest fear was that Tom would be disappointed in me as well as my penguins.  I told Tom and he understood and said I should start curling with him now.....LOL  My penguins were also very understanding.  So now that they all know I needed to put it out there for everyone.

Thanks for reading and maybe this will also help me hit the reset button and get back to regular blogging and having fun running.







12 comments:

  1. That's why I didn't throw our hats into the ring for NYC again. It's a year long commitment and it becomes a part time job. With Charlie already working 6 days a week he had no time to just relax and breathe. We may do it again, just not this year. I understand how you're feeling!

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  2. Sounds like a good time for you to pick up tennis! ;)

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    1. There is a tennis park near me but lessons are CRAZY expensive!

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  3. I have often read your blog and thought, damn how does she do it? You run a lot! Good luck with your break. hope you find your love of running again.

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    1. Thank you!!! When it was fun it didn't seem like a lot.....

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  4. I got to that point a few years ago as well with running. My heart just wasn't in it! I have found a new form of exercise that feels exciting now to fill that void. While I will always love to run, sometimes you just have to go down a new path!

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    1. Thanks! I have started going to the gym with a friend and I am hoping to get more regular with my yoga practice as well :)

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  5. It's good to be honest with yourself. I hope you find the fun in running again. Or if you don't, then I hope you accept it and move onto something you so enjoy. Curling? As in a kettle rock and brooms? So cheesy, but it looks fun!

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    1. LOL Yup Tom has been part of a curling league for a few years now and loves it. :)

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  6. Xoxo xoxo
    I feel ya baby, but if you start curling, I may have to intervene ;)

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  7. I hit the reset button a bit this year. I started heart rate training and it totally took the pressure off running for me. I'm slowly building up my mileage again and I'm actually enjoying running again! Give yourself some time and I bet you will find your way back if you truly miss it. Good luck!

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